thought on life today

I am at a point in my life that all i can think about is what I want to achieve and if I have the time to achieve it. I know that many people don't always follow any type of religion, (i am one of them) but I do believe in God and the bible. I see how things are in my world today and I just know that the end is soon to be here and I ask myself...when will my time end. It's great to see all the changes that are happening around me but a part of me just feels like it's all to late but then there is a part of me that thinks about the possibility of it's the exact time it's suppose to happen for example... going green, yes it's great that we are starting to take care of the world but why now? is it because our global warming is affected as it is- or is it because we are now living the moment that everything is suppose to work in unison and we are now starting to live the 7 yrs of peace. I find myself in a monitone state of mind. I can't live without thinking about the outcome any more. I used to be so free and loved to live and didn't care about the outcome and as I grow I fear, and as I fear I wonder... if the things that other people are doing are being done because they also fear that the end is near and they want to change everything in order to postpone or change the inevitable or is it all happening because it is suppose to happen... I am in the middle of my Psych. major and it really makes you brake things down and then being liberally spiritual it brakes things down even more. Even if you don't believe in any type of religion pick up a Bible and read the apocalypse...it will make you see things just a little different. and maybe then you could understand where I come from.